‘‘I never had the opportunity to have a family of my own. I'm terminating yours,’’ the manifesto says.
‘‘I will utilize every bit of small arms training, demolition, ordinance and survival training I've been given,’’ it reads. ‘‘You have misjudged a sleeping giant.’’
In the document, Dorner rails against the hypocrisy of black police commanders who crack down on their white subordinates and catalogues his experiences with racism and injustice, beginning with a schoolyard fight at his Christian elementary school and ending with the disciplinary process that led to his dismissal from the LAPD in 2008.
Dorner recalls that he beat up a fellow student who called him a racial slur on the playground while in the first grade. The principal punished the student, but also chastised Dorner for not turning the other cheek, ‘‘as Jesus did.’’
‘‘That day I made a life decisions that I will not tolerate racial derogatory terms spoken to me,’’ he wrote.
He also recalls sticking up for a fellow cadet in the police academy when other recruits sang Hitler youth songs and taunted the man, who was the son of a Holocaust survivor, and placing another recruit in a choke hold after the man used a racial slur and refused to stop when Dorner objected.
In the latter instance, Dorner filed a complaint against two of his fellow recruits, but only one of the men was disciplined and it left him bitter, according to court records. He would later tell a colleague the LAPD was corroded by the racism of some of its officers.
Dorner graduated and served for only four months in the field before being deployed to the Middle East in 2006 and 2007. When he returned, he was assigned to a training officer, Sgt. Teresa Evans, who became increasingly alarmed at his conduct, according a summary of an interview with Evans in Dorner’s disciplinary file.
The burly man with tattoos on his biceps repeatedly asked why he was not sent to reintegration training after his return from war and on one occasion, began weeping in the patrol car and demanded to be taken back to the police academy to be retrained, court documents show.
Dorner also told Evans he was building a house in Las Vegas and intended to sue the department after his probationary period was over — a conversation Evans reported to a superior.
Evans began collecting examples of ‘‘deficiencies’’ in Dorner’s police work — including talking to a suspect on a ‘‘man with a gun’’ call without taking cover. After much prodding, Evans recounts, Dorner told her he ‘‘might have some issues regarding his deployment.’’
On Aug. 4, 2007, Evans warned Dorner that she would give him an unsatisfactory rating and request that he be removed from the field unless he improved.
Six days later, Dorner reported to internal affairs that in the course of an arrest Evans had kicked a severely mentally ill man in the chest and left cheek. His report came two weeks after the arrest, police and court records allege.
Three civilian witnesses and a harbor policeman all said they didn’t see Evans kick the man, who had a quarter-inch scratch on his cheek consistent with his fall into a bush. The police review board ruled against Dorner, leading to his dismissal.
‘‘The delay in reporting the alleged misconduct, coupled with the witnesses’ statements, irreparably destroy Dorner’s credibility and bring into question his suitability for continued employment as a police officer,’’ the file reads.
Evans could not be reached for comment. Eric Rose, a spokesman for the Los Angeles Police Protective League, the officers’ union, declined to comment on the case or on Dorner.
As a result, he lost everything, including his relationships with his mother, sister and close friends, he wrote in his manifesto.
‘‘Self-preservation is no longer important to me. I do not fear death as I died long ago,’’ he writes. ‘‘I was told by my mother that sometimes bad things happen to good people. I refuse to accept that.’’
Associated Press Writers Julie Watson in San Diego, Greg Risling, Linda Deutsch and Tami Abdollah in Los Angeles and researchers Rhonda Shafner and Susan James in New York contributed to this report.