TTC August 2009 Part two

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    TTC August 2009 Part two

    I figured a new thread would be appropriate with Flax's heartache.

    Blush - Well? Anything?
     
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    Hi everyone.  Thanks OCC for the new thread.  I just want to thank you all again for your kind words over the past few days.  I am going to be ok.  It is really hard, but we will continue TTC in a few months when I am physically healed and mentally ready.  I'll need to try to get some courage back.  I know some of you know first-hand how hard a miscarriage can be.

    We should all remain hopeful and happy about our lives.  I know that a post with news like mine can shake the confidence of everyone on this board, since we are all struggling with infertility issues and fears about the complexities of our TTC journeys.  But I hope that doesn't happen, because we all have a lot to be thankful for in life, and this is a great place for us to talk about it all, bad and good.  

    AFM, I am concentrating on healing.  I am getting acupuncture and talking to both my doctor and a Chinese herbalist about the best way to restore and strengthen my body now and for the future.  Perhaps by October we'll be ready to try again. And if not, that's ok too. 

    So please don't feel funny about posting happy (or even just mundane) news.  I still enjoy hearing about others' ultrasounds and heartbeats, and about all the ups and downs.  My fingers are crossed for you, Blushing.  Mary, I am interested to hear about your IVF protocol and how it works for you.  OCC and Rhm - how far along are you now, officially?
     
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    Good idea, occ!

    flaxen - thinking of you

    blush - any news??

    lil - how have you been doing? Have you gotten any closer to picking a donor? Did you have the social work appointment yet? I can't remember.

    mary - did you have your b/w so you can start Prometrium?
     
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    No...  I'm out.  I was actually getting a little hopeful this time b/c AF didn't show until late in the afternoon yesterday which was Day 27 which is kind of late for me.  I'm feeling kind of blue and sad today...  I'm starting to wonder if it will actually happen at all and if it doesn't, what then?  Ugh...  The lovely ups and downs of TTC.  It definitely can be hard sometimes.
     
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    Flaxen - Been thinking about you all week. Thanks for checking back in with everyone. We are here to support each other in the highs and the lows. I wish there weren't so many lows.

    AFM, I went in for my b/w on Wed so I could go on the Prometrium to force AF, and got a surprising call that afternoon telling me that the test showed I should get AF on my own within the next 10 days (based on my estrogen and other levels). I haven't gotten it on my own since March, so I didn't expect to hear that.

    I actually started to get cramping that night like AF was on it's way...but nothing so far. Most months I have a few days where I feel like I have my period but no bleed shows up. So at first I was all excited that my first IVF cycle would start sooner because AF would be here any day, but now I'm worried it's not actually going to come, and if so, I have to wait another full 10 days (in addition to the 35 I already waited) for it not to arrive before I'm allowed to call back to take another blood test and go on the Prometrium (which will mean another 10 days before AF comes).

    May not be a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but I just feel like I've been waiting forever. So, please send good vibes my way for AF to come and soon!

    I talked to the nurse from my IVF team and she said my calendar with my drug protocol etc will be at my house in the next day or so and I ordered all of my meds through Village Pharmacy and they will be here soon too. Everything is in place. It's just a waiting game now.

    The only other thing is I've started to have nightmares about the shots I'll need to give myself. I'm a big baby and I watched the training video this week and it's making me really nervous. Any pointers/pep talks about this would be welcome too.

    Thanks, ladies.
     
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    Re: TTC August 2009 Part two

    Mary, what shots will you be doing?  Most of mine (Lupron, Gonal-F) involved teeny tiny little small-gauge needles that you can barely feel.  Use a little ice beforehand and you'll hardly notice it at all.  I found that my thigh was by far the least sensitive spot.  I got a kick out of it in a clinical, science-project-ish way. And remember, every single shot brings you closer to your goal - you actually start to look forward to them.  You'll do fine. 
     
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    Ug Blush!  I was hoping no news was good news.  It is so frustrating.  I know you and DH had a time frame in mind and then you were going consider IVF again.  Have you discussed it recently? You may not be ready yet which I completely understand.  Keep your chin up.

    Mary - That would be great if AF comes on her own.  Each day can feel like forever and 10 must sound like it will never come.  It's strange to say but I will send AF thoughts for you. 

    Flax - I am glad to hear you are dealing with it.  I know it sounds corny but time definitely helps.  It's encouraging that you are already talking about getting back on the horse.  Don't worry about the courage it will be there trust me!

     
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    flaxen, glad to hear from you.

    blush, sorry to hear your news!  i totally understand the sad/blue feeling - even when you try so hard not to get your hopes up it's a little impossible to not feel sad when AF rears her head.  i'm a little confused by another post - did you consider ivf at one point or am i misunderstanding?

    i have no news except DH's sp&rm is A-OK and my next appt. w/ the specialist is in sept (i hate waiting that long!).  i hope we'll get on a plan and something will work to regulate my !@#$% ovulation so i can have a chance of conceiving!  ugh.

    happy friday, all. 

     
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    Grr! Sorry to hear it Blush. It will happen.  
     
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    Hey Stef-  No worries...  You didn't misunderstand.  I don't think all the newbies know my history.  I started TTC 2 years ago this month.  A year ago in July, I went through IVF and got pregnant...  But unfortunately, I lost my baby at 18 weeks.  The doctors are not sure why...  It's just one of those things that happened.  So my DH and I needed time to heal and took quite a bit of time off from TTC ...  7 months and we just started again in May.  We're hoping to get pregnant on our own before we have to go to the IVF route again.  We're going to give it a few more months, we'll see.

    Thanks to eoe for your words of support!  I feel a little better now, I just really needed to vent earlier.
     
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    AF arrived today!! Yay...my first cycle begins.
     
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    AF arrived yesterday.  As you all know, I am secretly psyched to begin BC for 2 months.  I feel terrible about that, but it will really be easier not to have to worry about anything when we are in the process of moving.   :-)
     
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    Hi Everyone.
    Flaxen - I have been thinking about you too!

    Blushing - I hear your frustration.  I am there too!  I am going to give this donor thing a chance and then after that we will probably go on to adoption.  I am so sick of thinking about TTC.  It doesn't help when I see in my office day after day girls who are getting pregnant who don't have even a clue how to take care of a child.   I look at some of these kids and think, wow, you don't have a chance to make it in this world.  Very sad.  However, I bet your chances for repeat IVF will be great since you got pregnant first try right?  Still, it should never have to be this hard and you should never have to go through what you have been through!

    AFM - I am in a holding pattern until Sept 9th when I have the hysteroscopy.  After that, we should be good to go.  RHM - I have not made the appt yet for social work.  I have sort of checked out the last couple of months but will have to get in gear again soon.

    I am glad to hear that OCC and RHM are doing well.

    As for EOE - big hello out there.
     
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    Mary - great news on AF. Away you go!

    ALF - glad AF showed and you're on your break. I agree - too hard while moving. Are you starting to pack?

    blushing - hope you're feeling better and moving on to o-time.


    lil - glad to hear from you. I've been thinking about you. I hope you were able to enjoy (at least somewhat) your break and I really hope that DE goes great for you! Sept 9 will be here before you know it.


    Big hellos to eoe-


    AFM - scan is this Friday. Looking forward to seeing some great pics on the u/s and having DH get to experience it, too.

    Stay cool out there!

     
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    Hi RHM,

    I'm starting to get rid of junk, but not starting to pack.  Actually, they pack everything for us; we just supervise, so it's not that bad.  We're still waiting on his written orders - we can't go househunting w/o them, so we actually have no idea where we are going to live just yet.  Argh.  Once I figure that out, I can figure out what furniture et al we need to get rid of.  :-)

    Good luck to everyone else.  Stay cool!
     
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    Hey LIL-  So great to see you on the board!  It's definitely been a rough road for the both of us...  I'm happy to hear that you're making some progress though and that you have target dates coming up!  Will be hoping for the best for you on Sept 9th!

    Flaxen-  Thinking of you...  Hope you're doing ok.

    Mary-  Good luck on your 1st cycle!

    Alf-  I think it's great that you're excited to be going on BCP's!!!  TTC can totally take over your life and it's nice when you don't have that pressure!  Good for you!

    Rhm-  Good luck with your scan on Friday!  I'm really thinking the best for you and think that everything will be ok!  You deserve it girl!

    Big hello's to OCC, Lesal, Kar and eoe!  

    AFM-  I was pretty down on Sunday...  But I feel much better now.  Gotta love the hi's and lows with TTC!  With this cycle though, I did get my hopes up probably more than I should b/c AF was later than usual for me.  I have to learn not to do that!!!!  But the good news is, I made an appt with my OB for the 27th and he may refer me back to my RE.  I'm ready to take that route again.  I'm also seeing an acupuncturist on the 29th.  You saw one before right RHM?  I've heard good things and bad about them, so we'll see.
     
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    blush - I did a/c for my first IVF. Hard to tell if it worked, but it can't hurt. Some people feel that it does help them and it's at least pretty relaxing which is good during that time. You'll have to tell us how it goes. Let me know if you have any questions about it!
     
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    [QUOTE]AF arrived yesterday.  As you all know, I am secretly psyched to begin BC for 2 months.  I feel terrible about that, but it will really be easier not to have to worry about anything when we are in the process of moving.   :-)
    Posted by ALF72[/QUOTE]

    I hope you won't let guilt steal your joy.  You deserve and need a break right now.  And, hopefully it will do the job your doc thinks it will and will be totally worth it in every respect.

    Don't you LOVE uncluttering your life?  Moving is the only way I've ever really been successful at it even though I'm not a huge clutter bug.  Things accumulate no matter how careful I am.

    Thinking of you in the move and the 2 months of BC.
     
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    By the way, I had a migraine and threw up yesterday, and my poor DH is assuming I'm pg.  I'd be hopeful, but the problem is timing.  The earliest possible time I could have conceived was last Tuesday, Day 11, so I know Day 11 is unlikely to result in pg, and it's too early for symptoms even if I did ovulate early.  I think I was just dehydrated. :( 
     
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    Kar, I don't accumulate alot of junk either, but DH does. I cannot believe how much crapola we have to get rid of.  Fortunately, I don't think we are going to have 1/2 the storage space in DC that we have now, so he will have no excuse not to get rid of it.  The man takes up more closet space than I do!  He currently has 2.5 closets [which are very large w/ upper shelving too], a bureau, a night stand, an amoire and a chest.  He wears a uniform 5 days of the week and is not really into clothes, so I have no idea why he has so much junk.  I have 1.5 closets, a bureau and a 2 drawer nightstand.   He will not let me throw away anything!  It's quite annoying. I can't wait to go househunting so that I can get a floor plan to work with so that I can show him exactly what we need to dump.  lol. 

    I hope you are feeling better today. I felt like cra^p yesterday too.  I was all crampy and I hurt my bad ankle this past weekend playing tennis.  I'm lucky I just turned it and didn't sprain it again.  That would really stink w/ our impending move!  Tongue out
     
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     ALF     You should not feel guilty.  You have a whole life, this is one small aspect.  You are still in a good age range.  Take a break, get established someplace new. 
         I think a pregnancy would be more stress free when you have a home, have time enough in a job to relax, and DH and you are both past that first 8 months or more in a new job when you tackle a lot, getting established.
         Then you can have a while to just let nature take its course, not piling stress on stress.  I say, good for you.

         Wish I could loan you the packing crew we had.  Nobody does the job like a group of mature ladies, meticulous almost to obsession, with a crew of able bodied help to boss around.  The most I did was tell people what to label boxes so I would find things later, and feed people.  Barely lifted a finger.  I recommend that.
     
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    Alf -- I hear you on the moving/packing front.  We're in the thick of it now, and it's No Fun. 


    rhm -- good luck with your scan tomorrow. 


    AFM, not so great news: my MD called yesterday, and my hCG levels are not doubling ... not even close.  She says to expect AF within the week.  Guess it was too good to be true. 

     
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    [QUOTE]Alf -- I hear you on the moving/packing front.  We're in the thick of it now, and it's No Fun.  rhm -- good luck with your scan tomorrow.  AFM, not so great news: my MD called yesterday, and my hCG levels are not doubling ... not even close.  She says to expect AF within the week.  Guess it was too good to be true. 
    Posted by GC1016[/QUOTE]

    GC - I am sorry to hear that. If you need a silver lining, at least know that it means you can get pregnant. Hopefully, you will get a BFP that sticks really soon.
     
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    Thanks, rhm.  That's how we're trying to look at it -- but it was a hard call to get.  I had a sinking feeling something was up when the doctor recommended a follow-up blood test b/c my initial one showed a "low positive" but I figured it was just early and the second draw would be good. 

    I am just a little nervous about what comes next ... she says it should be just a heavier and possibly crampier AF, but there's no sign of anything happening yet, and now that I know, the waiting is hard. 


    Onward and upwards, I guess.  I shouldn't even be complaining, we're barely out of the TTC gate, and so many people have been as this for so much longer.   

     
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    [QUOTE]Thanks, rhm.  That's how we're trying to look at it -- but it was a hard call to get.  I had a sinking feeling something was up when the doctor recommended a follow-up blood test b/c my initial one showed a "low positive" but I figured it was just early and the second draw would be good.  I am just a little nervous about what comes next ... she says it should be just a heavier and possibly crampier AF, but there's no sign of anything happening yet, and now that I know, the waiting is hard.  Onward and upwards, I guess.  I shouldn't even be complaining, we're barely out of the TTC gate, and so many people have been as this for so much longer.   
    Posted by GC1016[/QUOTE]

    GC - while you may not have been ttc for very long, it doesn't mean you feel the sadness any less when something like this happens.
     

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