Re: Lonely, Depressed
posted at 8/25/2011 7:23 PM EDT
In Response to Re: Lonely, Depressed
Anyone that answers my post is courageous because I cannot give alot right now. I am hoping that by verbalizing some stuff here I will bring myself back to life. I have to admit I am reluctant to re-join the human race again. A part of me must enjoy this misery because I do not want to take steps to improve nor do I wish to tell my friends because they will think I'm f.u'd.
Posted by LonelyGirl
Trust me, that response part regarding "this BDC Board NOT being known for empathy", is in itself, a kinda "half-truth" and stated kinda jokingly as well.
Yes, we can be kinda cold & cynical, and sometimes (even when we don't mean it)- sorta heartless too, on here.
But gotta be honest lonleygirl...This BDC Pats board, is full of GOOD people...VERY good people, en masse. Our Regular long-time Members, in general & when it boils down to it, are pretty d#mn sincere & honestly caring, heartfelt people...FAR, far better than 99.9% of any Internet Message Boards I've ever been on, or heck- Even read just in passing.
Fact is, When We see someone coming in who appears sincere, real, and in what we determine, as honest In their need, and in their hurt. No matter what that "hurt" is, Or even what that "need" is, It sorta doesn't matter to us... Because If you come off as genuine in your request of support, An overwhelming majority of Us WILL stick by you and do our best to try to bring ya back up, even in the smallest but still very impt way...
We're such cynics in this day & age, and on nameless message boards, it becomes all-too often that a genuine person who really COULD and DOES need just a bit of compassion or simple love, Gets thrown by the curb, By decent people who wouldn't neccesarily THROW them by the curb, simply & just because said real person's askance for some support, gets trivialized and mocked by so many of us, who've become hardened after bearing witness to many fake posters coming off with designs, alterior intentions, simple attention, and VERY almost despicable (imho) downright lies & or baiting, just to initialize a reaction (lol, WhateverTH "reaction" they're looking for outta someone...who knows?).
And guess what? Let's be straight, right? We don't know IF even YOU are one of these people posing "in need of", but really just a person with ill-begotten designs, right? And I ain't bein', Nor am I even SAYING that you, yourself, in fact ARE...no way. We just have no way of knowing, right? SEE, I'm being straight here for a reason...And despite what it initially appears, it's actually a very positive reason.
Ya see, I believe When and ONLY when, we can reveal our TRUE fears (and I'm talking about MY fear, even any worry that you're being insincere)-BUT once and only once we start to reveal our own worries, our own truths, our OWN little underlying and 99% of the time (unfortuantely), unspoken little "what if's" and "I...don't know..."- See once and only once we start bringing our true concerns about ANOTHER person's sincerety of emotion and person-
...Once this comes to light and out in the open...then we can begin building with a bit less worry about someone's false intentions. Dig?
And regardless, lol- I guess when it comes down to it, I'd rather be played a fool anyways...and often. Yup, pretty much Each & EVERY time. I'd rather be "had" by 99 outta 100 people, IF I thought there was even 1 person who needed my help, TRULLY needed it, and coulda used it...BUT, I didn't give it and I didn't offer it to them, Because I was so jaded by those other 99 d#psh#ts who played me lol...
I guess what I'm saying is: You've come off as pretty real & honest so far. I, like most Regulars here, will help out any way We can.
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