This letter writer wrote a note to a lover when she was 40. Someone she knew for the better part of a decade. Someone she loved.
She wrote it after the relationship had ended and says, “You were in my dream last night. It was so good to see you. I remember every detail of your face, your hands, your body. You came to tell me that you had gotten divorced.”
She also says this dream is all she has of him. “Eight years, and not a trace of you. The closest thing I have is a selfie I took of you.”
But the most poignant line is this: “I so badly want to know what your baby looks like.”
This letter writer realizes her former partner has an entire world without her. “I always knew where we stood,’ she writes. “There were never any doubts about the reality of the thing, even when it became more.… No future, no label, no blame, no jealousy, no regret.”
Worth noting: The letter writer regrets not sending the note, but says the subject of the letter is “lost to me. I have no means of communicating with him.”
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