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One day, when kissing my husband goodbye for work, he quickly closed a message box. At first I thought nothing of it, but it was bothering me still the next day.
I admit I opened his computer and looked. He speaks to many women – I saw lots of messages … no big deal. We both have friends. But one of the messages had selfies and things that kind of bugged me in a “more than friends” way.
I let it go for a while, but a month later I was still upset and my imagination was running wild. I logged in again to put my running imagination to rest … and the messages were gone. He deleted them. The rest of the messages were still there.
I decided to be honest and just ask about it. He admitted he’s been talking to this woman for three years and said they are just friends. I just don’t understand, as he has dozens of female friends whose messages were not deleted. Is this an affair? Why delete messages if they were friendly?
I don’t know what to do…
He deleted the messages because he didn’t want you to see them (obviously). You already know they were flirty in nature because you read them. He steps over some kind of line with this woman, and he doesn’t want you to have access to the details. Maybe they’re just friends … but there might be some feelings there, too.
Sometimes relationships are not quite one thing. There can be chemistry without people acting on it. That could be the case here.
Can you accept the friendship without continuing to check his email? That’s what you have to decide. If he tells you he’s not having an affair but has a friend with whom he flirts, is that OK? If he has conversations with friends and wants to keep them private, can you deal?
It sounds like maybe you can. Even in this short letter you imply you have a lot of space for both of you having close connections outside the relationship.
What’s missing here is a real understanding about boundaries. Have another conversation with your husband about what’s OK and what feels like infidelity. Talk about how you manage your own friendships and when it feels OK to keep things private.
It’s clear you need at least one more talk about why this felt weird – and how to fix it. Hopefully, after more conversation, you can move on together without feeling the need to check his accounts. That’s when you know it’s all good – when you can leave his email alone.
Readers? What are the boundaries here? Is it weird that these specific messages were deleted? Do you have messages with friends you’d want to keep away from a partner?
“You remember what the woman looked like, right? And/or do you know her, prior to your snooping? Say that you want to meet her (assuming she’s local). You can do drinks and apps, a movie – whatever. But, you want to see how they interact “together,” to put your fears at rest.”GdCatch
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